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Celebrity Pharmacist
02:07
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I was standing in line at the payday loan
I could have heard a voice calling me home
Between the paint and the walls and the silver and chrome
Back when my life was still my own
I'm a celebrity pharmacist now
Just how I make it, I don't know how
I'm a celebrity pharmacist now
Me and Joe were coming fresh out of work
When they picked him outside the Baptist church
I saw the light above the wet cement
And I knew that I'd lost my chance to repent
I'm a celebrity pharmacist now
Just how I make it, I don't know how
I'm a celebrity pharmacist now
Now I'm semisuicidal and a sycophant
And living in the winter of our supplements
I'm just another talking head
Filling up the space between the fear and the dread
I'm a celebrity pharmacist now
Just how I make it, I don't know how
I'm a celebrity pharmacist now
Between the oxycontin and the fentanyl
And the sedative-hypnotics you're expendable
We lost our friends to the Sackler creed
Sacrificial lambs to their capitalist greed
I'm a celebrity pharmacist now
Just how I make it, I don't know how
I'm a celebrity pharmacist now
I'm a celebrity pharmacist now
Just trying to keep the sweat off my brow
I'm a celebrity pharmacist now
I'm a celebrity pharmacist now
Just how I make it, I don't know how
I'm a celebrity pharmacist now
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2. |
Like A War
02:42
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(Four!)
I didn't really mean to turn back
I just had nowhere else to go
I let myself feel the attack
Of the words that you said long ago
And I love you like we love a war that's just begun
But if history repeats, I'll catch a rerun
And I love you like we love a war that's just begun
But if history repeats, I'll catch a rerun
And I'd let myself see you again
If it meant I could feel something
I'd let my damn therapist win
If it meant I could end the numbing
Why don't you come on in?
You know the water's sweet
Help me to tie the cement blocks around my feet
Why don't you come on in?
You know the water's sweet
Help me to tie the cement blocks around my feet
And I miss you just like how I miss alcohol
My mind's only clear when I'm going through withdrawals
And I miss you the way that I miss nicotine
If it makes me feel better, how bad could it be?
And I love you like we love a war that's just begun
But if history repeats, I'll catch a rerun
And I love you like we love a war that's just begun
But if history repeats, I'll catch a rerun
I-
And I love you like we love a war that's just begun
But if history repeats, I'll catch a rerun
And I love you like we love a war that's just begun
But if history repeats, I'll
(I'm here for that one)
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3. |
Oppenheimer
02:08
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4. |
Forgetting To Love
02:38
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5. |
Golden Staircase
02:34
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6. |
Jessomae
04:10
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7. |
So Good To See
02:38
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It's so good to see him laugh
Even if it isn't me
Who can give him what he wants, or takes, or needs to still believe
And it's so good to see him laugh
Like he never did at home
Where the bottles and the pills stacked up as if he lived alone
And I was running low on temper
I was feeling low and mean
When I asked him in December when he'd finally up and leave
And though he said he was
He wasn't too surprised
It went like we'd rehearsed another series of goodbyes
And it's so good to see him laugh
Even if it isn't me
Who can give him what he wants, or takes, or needs to still believe
I thought I'd find him here
At Calhoun's on the strip
Enchanting a small crowd of those enamored with his wit
I leave before he sees me
And puts on a different face
I guess I wasn't ready for a joyous man to take his place
Li-di-die
Li-di-die-di-die
Li-di-die, yeah
It's so good to see him laugh
Even if it isn't me
Who can give him what he wants, or takes, or needs to still believe
And it's so good to see him laugh
Like he never did at home
Where the bottles and the pills stacked up as if he lived alone
It was so good to see him laugh
It was so good to see him laugh
It was so good to see him laugh
It was so good to see him
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8. |
Coward
03:16
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10. |
To California
02:18
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11. |
Just A Promise
04:32
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Did you think that I could ever really be myself around you?
Did you think that I could ever really be myself without you?
I don't know where this is coming from
All of my friends are miles away
All of my friends are miles away
I'm trying not to love you, but you don't make it easy
And she told me that
Living's just a promise that I made to my parents
I might not be okay, so please excuse my disappearance
It didn't help, but I'm glad you tried
To help me with what's left inside
When living's just a promise
When living's just a promise
I think I'll sip my coffee with a carcinogenic sweetener
And think about the ways that I didn't know how to treat her
She told me that
Living's just a promise that I made to my parents
I might not be okay, so please excuse my incoherence
It didn't help, but I'm glad you tried
To help me with what's left inside
Living's just a promise
Living's just a promise that I made to my parents
I might not be okay, so please excuse my disappearance
It didn't help, but I'm glad you tried
To help me with what's left inside
Living's just a promise
Woo!
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CD Barnes Washington, D.C.
Caleb Davis Barnes got his start in the Charlottesville music scene, playing in the bands Marti, Cluster Funk, and Beezin. In 2024, he is releasing his debut solo album, A Prize For All Your Courage.
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